Just got home from seeing The Internship. (Good movie-I’d recommend it. Although not to my mother because there’s an extended scene in a strip club and that would ruin the whole movie for her.)
So, I decided to check my e-mail and my “M.H. Lee” account (I have rules that route all writing-related e-mails to their own folder) showed one new message. My immediate thought? “Oh, probably another rejection e-mail.”
It was too late at night for a newsletter and I hadn’t posted to the blog today, so I immediately went to the worst scenario. (It wasn’t. Got one of those yesterday, though. A form from a market where I’d received a personal before. It’s one step forward, two steps back sometimes.)
That negative thought process is not like me. The good thing about having an ego the size of a house is that you just assume that you can do shit. You don’t stop and question yourself you just do. And it generally works.
Of course, the bad thing about having an ego the size of a house is that when you don’t succeed easily it can be quite puzzling and lead to stupid defeatist thoughts like, “obviously another rejection.”
I annoy myself sometimes.
The only solution? Keep writing and keep submitting until I get to the point where I’m getting as many acceptances as rejections (or more) and I can no longer have such crap thoughts about my e-mails.